I just want to say your name
I don’t wanna have to learn about you
Just wanna hang around you
And know everything
You do an impression of me
And ask me where I go when I look far away
I mentioned something about anxieties

You got holes in your heart, but you’re so guarded
I swear we both fell in

Most times I can’t tell what you’re thinking
Questioning even my simple thoughts
Calm me down, I told you I was crazy
You said you were still in love
I’ll wake you up when you’re long falling in a dream
When it’s late
Call me I think you’re asleep
All day, all day
I’ve been worried about how you’ve been feeling
All day

My new love
My new love

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Dreams of different sizes hang up on a line in a dark room
Dry before they’re placed into a frame or tucked into a file marked you
But the next time we spoke, I let myself down and you were kind anyway
I had been pushed off the frame
The dogs barked the entire time
I swear I had blood in my mouth from always telling the truth
You didn’t mind
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You’re walking around and cooking food at 3 in the morning
I’m laying on the bed and keeping the dog entertained and away from the edge
Before you know it, I’m waking up in my jeans
You, me and the pup positioned
I don’t remember squeezing you too closely when you got sick
No need to apologize if you got short or crossed
Again, I don’t even remember it

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Looking back sharpens a version of the truth
It feels better like that than thinking there’s some good now
Or maybe something later
The first time we met, we played each other such sad songs
I remember when I got to sing for you before you had to pick up your brother
You stayed as long as you could
I remember what you said to our friend the night we laughed before I walked you to the car
You kissed me twice
And the next red eyes in the morning
I didn’t think it was true
I don’t remember doing very much
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Now there’s a connection between the way you touch my hair and meal you just cooked
You made this summer’s plans a year ago in your head
But things changed
I wanna spend time with you in your downtown apartment
Where I remembered window cleaners
We can take the pedestrian bridge to the springs
The pasta is done boiling

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The heart is a dark room where the mind develops the truth
It’s 3am and you’re walking around your downtown apartment
Where I remembered window cleaners
The meal on your fresh white sheets
The flowers from the sink moved to the bedside table
Your eyes are worse than the dogs
I left a poem for you before shaking my head at the painting near the elevators
The last time I left
That’s good, yes
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